A Lover's Puzzle - Letter to A Recent Ex Lover (Censored)

Dear _________, 

      Day 66. Hasn’t arrived yet. But we’re nearly there. I wrote two angry letters before. The uncensored version of this letter, I suppose haha. I think that’s the brain speaking though. I think when it comes with the heart it always speaks in a soft voice. And that’s what this letter is. 

     Are your eyes still blue and striking? I can’t believe, I’ll become near you again in just a few days. But, we probably won’t see each other. 

     I think you were right. We really don't know each other. 

     I wanted to say thank you for making me laugh again. I wish I counted how many times we kissed each other that cold, cold night. And how many times I brushed my cheek against your beard.

     Sometimes, I wish I could see your completed project, and that you could see mine. But that future won't arrive. 

     I think it’s very easy to forget me and I don’t blame you. It took all of no contact to pin you down as the jealous guy. But I was transparent with you the whole time we were together. I didn’t see anyone else. I didn’t meet an ex or be with someone new when there was only you. I thought that with you and your friends, I thought I finally found a place where I belonged and felt so happy. I didn’t know, that the whole time you just saw me as someone shallow. I may look like I party a lot, or that I’m a complete extrovert just because I take care of myself pretty well outwardly with skincare, make-up, and long nails. However, I am not superficial. 

     You said I was pretty like ancient trees. And I missed your deep warm voice. 

Mari xx 

#gb #im