A Lover's Puzzle - Letter to A Recent Ex Lover (Censored)

8/02/2019




Dear _________, 


      Day 66. Hasn’t arrived yet. But we’re nearly there. I wrote two angry letters before. The uncensored version of this letter, I suppose haha. I think that’s the brain speaking though. I think when it comes with the heart it always speaks in a soft voice. And that’s what this letter is. 

     Are your eyes still blue and striking? I can’t believe, I’ll become near you again in just a few days. But, we probably won’t see each other. 

     I think you were right. We really don't know each other. 

     I wanted to say thank you for making me laugh again. I wish I counted how many times we kissed each other that cold, cold night. And how many times I brushed my cheek against your beard.

     Sometimes, I wish I could see your completed project, and that you could see mine. But that future won't arrive. 

     I think it’s very easy to forget me and I don’t blame you. It took all of no contact to pin you down as the jealous guy. But I was transparent with you the whole time we were together. I didn’t see anyone else. I didn’t meet an ex or be with someone new when there was only you. I thought that with you and your friends, I thought I finally found a place where I belonged and felt so happy. I didn’t know, that the whole time you just saw me as someone shallow. I may look like I party a lot, or that I’m a complete extrovert just because I take care of myself pretty well outwardly with skincare, make-up, and long nails. However, I am not superficial. 

     You said I was pretty like ancient trees. And I missed your deep warm voice. 




Mari xx 

#gb #im 






8 comments

  1. This is actually raw and beautiful at the same time. I only 'wrote' such letters in my mind. But you are so brave. 💗

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      Thank you so much for your sweet comment! I used to only write these letters in my mind too! Finally got the courage to release it as a writing exercise. It feels very cathartic and I don't feel as heavy as I did before.

      Mari xx

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  2. Aww this is beautiful. You can really feel the pain and love all at the same time.

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      I didn't expect my post to get any attention! I really appreciate you stopping by and leaving the sweetest comment! Thank you, sugar xo

      Mari xx

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  3. Wow! This is incredible! So raw and beautiful. I've written posts like this and they were far from easy. Well done!

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    1. Thank you so much for the sweetest comment you've left on my blog. I want to cry. ; o ; Thank you for the nice compliments! I really appreciate it!

      Mari xx

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  4. This is a beautiful and unbelievably emotional letter. Thank you for sharing such a vulnerable and heart-filled post with the world!

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    1. Thank you for writing me the sweetest and nicest comment ; o ;
      I'm so sorry I'm so late at replying. But I really appreciate the time you took to leave me a comment on my post! xo

      Mari xx

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